Tisha Tuttle

I was born February 9,1970. I was an unplanned pregnancy and my mother never married my father. Infact, my mother admitted to me that she thought of having an abortion and always adds how glad she was that she didn’t. I thank THE LORD.

Soon after I was born, she married a man in the service. I don’t think he was ready for a family. I don’t know what he did, all I know is that he verbally and possibly physically abused me. I started to have unexplained seizures. Actually, the doctors did not believe my mother when she told them I was having them. That is until I had one on the doctors table. The doctor put me on drugs to try to help with the seizures. It worked but it also slowed my development. For instance I learned to walk and talk around the same time my brother did who is two years younger.

When I was about a year to a year and a half old, she met the man I call Dad. He saw the affects the drugs were having and convinced my mother to have me taken off them. I started to develop after that. He also adopted me as his daughter. I thank GOD for my dad. My father told me later that I did not trust men except him and my maternal grandfather. I remained painfully shy.

When I was about 5 or 6, Dad and mom divorced. Soon after she married another man. Dad remained a constant figure in my life even though I lived with my mom. He accepted JESUS as his savior. Soon after,when I was about 8 or 9. I accepted JESUS as my SAVIOR. It went well until…

When I was about 12 or 13 my stepfather, the same one mom married years back started to look at playboy magazine. As the course ran through, he started to look at harder stuff, like penthouse. When that wasn’t enough, he started to watch porn’s on video. When I was about 14, he would have me watch them with him. I would get so sick that I would go to my room and stay there until my mom came home from work. He also started to molest me. My message here is that pornography is very disastrous to families. If you look at pornography I urge you to look into what the bible says about lust and uncovering another. Anyway, I tried to tell my mother but she did not believe me.

I got really angry. Not understanding, I blamed GOD. I did not understand why HE would not protect me. I did not think he loved me. To try to get some control over my circumstances, I started dabbling in witchcraft, thanks to a public library book. Strange things started happening, to say the least. I went to the only personae I could think of who would know how to help me, my dad. He told me how to bind the spirits in JESUS name as well as telling me not to do that. I did what he said and they went away. Never did it again either.

I remained angry and depressed. My mom caught my stepfather peeking in my room while I was changing, around 16 years old. We left. I had counseling but it did not help much. I remember that I would cut my arms as an attempt to show people how much pain I felt inside.

I moved from Colorado to Wyoming with my mother and husband number 4 to get away from a relationship that had gone bad when I graduated High School. Soon after I moved there, I met Rick, my future husband. We got married 6 months after we met. Before we got married we went to marriage counseling. The subject went to JESUS. I recommitted my life right than and Rick committed his life to JESUS at the same time. That was eight years ago and I will never go back.

GOD has healed me of my anger and depression. It was a long process but I am glad to report that I am still serving GOD full heartily. If you would like to know how to meet JESUS. Come to my page at http://www.angelfire.com/wy/humble1/

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